I haven’t written anything in weeks. After publishing Seen and Unseen, I just felt a little burned out and deflated. I think it’s the post-release blues I seem to get. I still have lots of creative ideas, but the thought of sitting at the laptop/iPad to actually do some writing really didn’t appeal to me. As you can see, I have a number of stories on the go at the moment, all in different stages of development.
All of those stories are shorts, except for Deduction and Fluctuation, which ideally, I would like to come in at novel length (40-60k words).
I walk a lot. It’s one of my hobbies. I’m pretty good at it. I only trip and fall flat on my face once every two or three miles now. It is during walking that I get all of my story ideas. It’s when I think through plot points, problems, character motivations, scenes etc. During my most recent walks, the characters and events of Fluctuation kept popping up in my thoughts. Fluctuation is a story that I first tried to write for NaNoWriMo 2014. It was, in part, inspired by The Ocean at the End of the Lane and Skellig. I wanted a story of youngsters discovering a hidden world of supernatural events. But the problem is, back in 2014, I didn’t know what kind of writer I was. So I went in to NaNoWriMo blind, thinking I would just make it up as I went along. I have since discovered that I am a planner, not a pantser. I plan to an almost excruciating level. Inevitably this means I wrote the first chapter of Fluctuation, and then got stuck. This is that first chapter. Please try to overlook how rough and far from ready this is! It was written before I honed my writing skills to the impeccable levels they are currently at.
I love all of those characters. Charlie is, what I believe the cool kids on the twitter dot com call, a soft cinnamon roll! And Rock Chick (who I think I want to rename to Boho Chick) is a mysterious character that has a lot to reveal about herself.
The biggest problem I had with Fluctuation, and why I put it on the backburner was because the story felt empty, due to the lack of plotting. I would often ask myself why anyone would be interested in reading it, which I suspect is a shared thought amongst writers, and I just didn’t have an answer. But with it being in my thoughts a bunch recently, I think I’ve fleshed it out more. I had a seperate idea of a collection of short stories based on the major arcana tarot deck. I now know they are part of the same story as Fluctuation, and when I had this realisation, all the ideas came flooding in.
Because I am rather pretentious, I often think of stories as already existing in the aether, and that my job as a writer is to find them and channel them through me and onto paper as my interpretation. I think it is because I never really feel in control of my stories, and it doesn’t feel like I’m creating it, but instead just having a series of revelations.
And so, with all of that, I sat down to redraft and plot out Fluctuations (it’s a working title, it will change before the story is finished). I’m excited about the story again. I believe it is a good story. The challenge now is to mould it into something presentable for others.
On a slight tangent, I have a short story that I wrote, purely as a quick exercise, that is based in the same universe as Fluctuation. I don’t think the characters or this event will be used in the larger story in any way, but I don’t think I’ve shared it before, so here ya go:
How is your writing going? Working on any exciting projects right now? Tell me more about you. Anyway, I’m off to reserve a seat in the coffee shop. Until next time, Peace and Love!